3:13 pm My greatest REGRET is, if I ever have to day goodbye, I will never be able, to sit Deja st the table… with your family, at her seat, you gave her, whether she earned it or not.
3:08 pm Mother: If I can do this with nothing, imagine if I had something to work with.
1:59 pm I WANT TO KNOW THE TRUTH, NO MORE LIES, I WANT TO KNOW!!! WHO IS MY CHILD!!! I WANT TO KNOW AND I AM NOT GOING TO STOP ASKING UNTIL HER FATHER TELLS ME THE TRUTH, TO MY FACE… MICS OPEN.
1:56 pm They Assasignated my son and want me to play crazy, yes I am having a issue and YES, I am the one Mustapha has trouble controlling, now I said it.. so there, I want to CRY and I cannot.
As I prepare for one of the greatest speeches of m life I have to remember who I am as well as whose I am. Today the Honorable Minister Farrakhan will speak, and YES this MANTLE is heavy to carry, I can’t complain with what I have been given. I will tell you ONE of the elected 12 I will copy and paste this private message to, yes I have had some wine to RELAX and yes I misbehaved a little. No matter what I do or have done, it does not take away from WHO I AM or WHY I am doing what I AM DOING. I just want to get my degree… that is, that is all… I want to silently mourn the loss of my son (and I have a great support system). If you get this message it is not because I care about your opinion or views, I am just INVITING you to open YOUR eyes of UNDERSTANDING and ENLIGHTENMENT I am not perfect, I am full of flesh and sin, maybe it is because of who I love that I suffer, for the way I love… I chose to study from a safe distance, no one will tell me the truth and I don’t have a dream to gamble, lost one the want to make me look crazy as hell for, while trying to bait away another… You wanted my statement before today, well… that is ALL I have to say and YES I can get this message to Mustapha before he takes the stage, WHY ELSE would I be present if it were not for “him”. Yes, I have had some wine, my dreams are being deferred. Now you know what I am thinking, why and when. http://www.noi.org/sd2013/keynote/ I am NOT mentally ill, I am extremely complex. I cannot have the man I want, yes I might seem a little crazy, unless you know he is mines. Seating: GUEST SECTION for MUSTAPHA FARRAKHAN ( Oldest son to Minister Farrakhan and eyes watching Deja, my ONLY daughter).
1:51 pm I am not going to EXPLAIN where I am today, if you have to ask, you don’t know me. I have been qued to head to my seat, where I must remain silent.
12:38 pm Sorry, its been a busy week.
8:18 am QUIET STORM: GARRY McCARTHY, A STORM IS BREWING, BLACK CAUCUS WANTS YOU OUT OF SUPT. OF POLICE JOB, RAHM HAS HIS BACK AGAINST THE WALL, MY TIP TO YOU.
8:12 am Okay I have just ONE Question??? Did I have all of the police attention, because YOU MISS ME CHICAGO or were you TRYING TO GET ON MY NERVES. I had moments of flashes, when I could not figure out if I was being sought after because you missed me or because you were telling me to go back to the Burbs… LOL either way, I miss playing and having FUN with all of you also. It was not about a right or wrong issues, just doing what I do. Can’t run drills like that out here, LOL, no helicopter fly bys, now high speed chases, no major crime scenes on the block, LOL.
8:10 am UGH, okay… let me see, recap… I announced I was leaving New Birth and the Pope resigns… come on people… what’s we gonna do?
7:55 am My short film, for my Oscar is… My GUY has my heart check out my short film.
7:46 am Child, I got my hair done for this next season, I am trying to bring myself back to life:) I chose to use blonde streaks, I had to replace the blonde with some other color and Michelle (Obama), I did a full swoop, layered with a feather option, bangs were sold out…
7:42 am I’ll just drop THAT class, no need to stop everybody else blessings, word got out I might get forced out of class and witnesses came out of the woodwork, went on record and vowed to back me, what is funny is… white people see this as racism, more than the black people do… isn’t that odd. What is different is, white people stand behind and together. Especially if you (I) am really cool.
7:38 am DARK CIRCLES AROUND THE EYES, yes I confess, STRESS with Deja after loosing DJ, FATIGUE of trying not to beak down and cry on sight and stay strong, all of the above, now it is time to LIVE… Washed the new baby today, cleaned her out… letting Deja get her local practice. This is one of those times, I wish we were back in the country on the back roads. MY BRAIN IS BACK, YIPPIE!! I was so tired coming back from all of the Valentine’s Day Excitement and events, that I kicked my computer off the bed and broke the peg. I have the new power cord, so I am BACK!!
7:37 am Maybe I should just go straight into my catering truck, bypass the school element and earn a Honorary Degree. I admit the school part is fun, I am just around too many babies and need to be around more adults maybe.